Winter Blues

Winter: the season u take a look at the sky,
watch the sun shine..

And you call Your God,
and you say a prayer..

and you say thank you,
thank you for the sunshine..

and inside your heart u'll think..
of billions of human in the world He created..

and of the thousands people He takes back..
why it were them, not it's not you..

And when everyday u live,
It's so cold in the nights..
U'll learned to say thank you..
U'll learn to take a prayer before u closed your room's door..
U'll learned to take a prayer before you start your car's engine..

U learnt to take a prayer..
So that if you might die..
Maybe a little prayer could have warm your little tiny heart..

What I Learn?

i'm never a good student,
but sometimes i get to learn..

i learnt,
that when it's too hot in the summer,
u'll pray for a windv to ruffle your hair..

i learnt,
that when's it's too cold in winter,
u hope for a morning full with sun..
that sun ray feels like a blessing..

i learnt,
that after a year of not meeting your family,
all the more u prays for them..

i learnt,
that not being able to see your sister on her wedding day,
sometimes make u feel useless..
and what a selfish man are u..

but i learnt too,
than sleeping alone at night everyday,
sometimes u dreams of your girl..
but most of the time u dreams of your family..
and most of the most of the time u just pray to be close to them..

i learn,
that every class u go..
and every knowledge u get to learnt,
but imagination, u dont..
and how knowledge is just a tools to make your imagination a reality..
and sometimes u just need to dream more..

and more..

and more...




and more,,,

kanak2 palestin.

kita sering kali berasa bertuah berbanding mereka.
kita, yg telah dinikmati nikmat keamanan.
mereka, yg bakal dinikmati nikmat syahid di jalan-Nya.


siapakah yg lebih bertuah?

How do u live, when u are afraid of dying?

Cerita Kecik-Kecik..

Cita zaman kecik-kecik. Kanak-kanak.

Ayah & Abg Ali

Ummmm, apa kamu semua nak jadi time kecik huh?

Aku? Fikir balik macam-macam gak la aku nak jadi. Askar, polis, driver ambulan, driver lori sampah pon aku pernah minat gak, pastu kena marah ngn mak, haha..........

Tapi aku ada sikit pelik time aku kecik-kecik dulu. Time tu aku dah minat extreme sport ni. Tengok paper orang snowboard, surfing, skateboard, motoGP, motocross, orang men payung terjun...... suma aku minat.
Suma aku nak jadi. Banyak oo cita-cita aku, susah sebenarnya nak jadi aku ni, hahaha....

Tapi yang tu xpenting pon. Setiap budak-budak ada conflik identiti. Suma orang.

Tapi aku igt ada satu hari tu, time aku sekolah rendah kot..

Stapler ayah rosak. Musim tanda kertas exam, kira stapler tu sgt dperlukan la. Spring dia rosak. Aku amek getah gelang tu. Potong, pastu aku ikat. Ganti spring tu. Berjaya. Tapi simple trick ja, suma orang bleh buat, kn?
Sejak hari tu, ayah selalu cita kat orang, sedara-mara aku suma, kawan-kawan dia..
Aku ada bakat jadi ''engineer".
Sebab aku ''pandai repair barang"..

Semua orang ayah cita, aku rasa aku xterrer pon, tapi aku pon ''ter-percaya'' ngn ayah aku.
Aku ada bakat jadi engineer. Konfiden tu penting. Manusia perlu confident utk berjaya.
Psychologist cakap: Your plan have to succeed on your mind, before it could succeed on real life''

Next time aku tau, sinilah aku. Kt Jepun, study mekanikal engineering.

Kalau bukan sebab pujian tu, susah gak kot aku nk fikirkan cita-cita ni.

Tu ja aku nak share:
Nanti kalau kita jadi ayah, konfidenlah dengan anak sendiri. Guide your son, he need that :)
If your son is special, be proud and cherish it. If your son is not so special. Well, u can make him special.
If your son is not special at all. Well, coz his father is not special at all too. :p Everyone need to feel special, to start their journey to be special.

Why Saidai?

1st of all Saidai stand for 埼玉大学（Saitama Daigaku) - Saitama University....



Satu musim persekolahan sudah tamat, satu sem dah pun habis.
Sem yg penuh dengan cabaran gak la.. Sekarang tengah summer holiday(nama glamor utk cuti sem ^^ )..


Kadang-kadang aku terfikir balik kenapa aku buat pilihan utk datang university ni..
Ummm, ada part yg macam aku bayangkn sebelum fly, ada gak yg ''lain sikit dari apa yg aku bayangkan''......


Time pilih university ari tu, xda orang pon dlm batch aku yg nk masuk Saidai, absolutely ZERO. Pastu Suwa Sensei mula pujuk-pujuk aku..
Dalam tu la dah sedar, kalau aku buat pilihan untuk ke Saidai, aku akan pergi sorang-sorang. SORANG-SORANG..


Sorang-sorang. Ramai orang takut. Aku pon takut gak. Risau. Aku pon risau gak.


Tapi.. fikirkan balik sekarang. Itulah sebab paling kukuh aku ke Saidai...
17 tahun aku membesar di rumah. Sekolah harian. Di bawah ayah dan mak. Pastu 3 tahun aku kat JAD. Bersama kawan-kawan. Honestly aku banyak gak la bergantung ngn kawan-kawan. Sebab tu aku buat keputusan ke Saidai, yup, sorang-sorang.


Sebab aku nk belajar berdikari.


I wannna grow up, I wanna be strong. I want to know myself. I want to know why I live.

Cuba bayangkn berapa orang Tuhan tarik nyawanya setiap hari. Di Palestin, Iraq, Afghanistan. Di Malaysia, di sebalik kemalangan jalan-raya di Malaysia. Tapi kenapa mereka, kenapa bukan aku dan kamu? Kerana disebalik hidup, semestinya ada tujuan kita hidup....

Setelah sekian lama x update..

salam..

dah lama x update blog ni.. kali last update sebelum fly..
esok genap 4 bulan aku kat jepun, so maknanya da 4 bulan tu la x update blog..
nk ceritakan sal hidup baru di jepun, byk sgt xlarat nk cerita..
nt rajin2 aku update la len, haha....

by the way 1st sem da nak abes, minggu depan start exam..
please pray for me..

p/s: I wonder, what part the Lord have for me? Are you there wondering the same too?